General Confusion

When will I ever have a normal summer? I'm not complaining per say but seriously it seems that every summer something that has me a little off tilt. Honestly, it's no secret what has me off this year, but in the off chance he has somehow found my blog and realized who I am, I'd rather not say his name. Yes, my problem is of the male persuasion. Unfortunately, it's not one of those "oh-a-cute-guy-likes-me-but-i-don't-really-know-if-i-like-him-or-like-him-like-him" problems, its more of "why-do-keep-popping-up-in-my-life-just-to-remind-me-of-all-the-terrible-things-I've-tried-so-hard-to-forget-not-to-mention-all-the-really-sucky-things-you-did-to-me" problems. Fortunately, this problem will not be here when school starts and will not be returning next summer to confuse me.

But I have to admit there are things I want to talk about but I don't know who to trust. I was thinking of telling my mom but she kind of blew me off when I asked to talk. Then I was going to tell my friend but she was really immature and I never got around to it. I'm running out of ideas here and my thoughts are keeping me up at night. I didn't get to sleep till one or two in the morning last night because I couldn't stop wondering and thinking and problem solving and all that. It's maddening.